Why is there one rule for Josette, but another rule for everyone else? Not just in relationships, but basic life. Why am I not allowed to have that job without a degree in it, but someone else can, with less experience that me who also doesn’t have a degree in that field? Why is everyone else allowed to live wit their partner, but it’s wrong for me to?
My whole world came crashing down
in one simple, positive phone call. Thinking positively doesn’t work. I have
been thinking positively and living in my little positive bubble that everything
was working out really well and that everything was going to be okay, but now
that my little safety, positive thinking bubble has been popped, I really don’t
feel able to cope with the reality of the situation. If I wasn’t thinking
positively, and I was planning for this, it wouldn’t hurt so much, nor would
the transition feel quite so impossible. I know it still won’t work out. I know
my limits and I know that I can’t do it, but I’m not being believed. So, rather
than say goodbye now, and it be incredibly hard and hurt, but he will recover
from it eventually and be able to be happy, we have to wait for ten months, for
me to prove that it won’t work, and then it will end very badly an =d with
hurtful, negative feelings towards each other, rather than ending things now,
without the resentment. I feel guilty and selfish in continuing, because he
deserves to find someone who will make him happy, someone who doesn’t own their
own home, so that they can up their life and move thirteen miles away, or maybe
they already live there. I can’t be in a relationship with one person because I
don’t own my own place, now I can’t be in a relationship with another because I
do own my own place. The person who I couldn’t be with because I didn’t own my
own place married someone else who didn’t own their own place. Owning my own
place has mean that I could see and spend time with my current partner, but now
it is also part of the reason why I can’t be with them anymore.
Why is everyone else allowed to
live with their partner, but I’m not? Why is everyone else allowed to see their
partner every day, but I’m not? Why is everyone else allowed to have their own
happily ever after, but I’m not. Why is there one rule for Josette, and one
rule for everyone else?
