Scary Situation

(Josie Sayz: I found this piece whilst archiving. I don't remember writing it; however I think I do know what might have been going through my head at the time given the date that I wrote it - 31/07/15.)

Have you ever been in a situation where you are so scared, but you have no idea why you are even doing it? The entire time you are doubting yourself. You know that you shouldn’t be doing it – it’s completely out of character, but you’re doing it anyway. Every second feels like a minute. Every minute feels like an hour. Yet still there you are, doing exactly what you told yourself not to. Your heart races. The pulse pounds through your ears. Your hands sweat. Your eyes twitch at any sudden movement. Your ears are on high alert. Your stomach begins to lather. Gripping a hand to it you let out a silent groan, praying that it will go away. Your mouth feels dry. You lick your lips and check your watch. How long has passed? Two, maybe three minutes? Your phone vibrates. You flinch. The screen lights up. You bite your lip and stare at it. You knew it was going to ring; it was just a matter of when. You stare at it a while, knowing that it won’t go away. They’ll just ring back again. It’s better to answer it sooner, rather than later.

- Josie -