24 February 2020

Crescented

(Josie Sayz: This is the opening to a story idea I came up with for a ‘Writing a Novel’ module at university. I can’t believe how much my writing has improved since being at university. Sometimes you think that once you’ve left education, you stop learning. That’s definitely not the case with me. This piece is crying out for a new draft, but I thought I would post the original on here for now. It will be nice to look back on one day when this is improved. I know it’s awful and is full of telling, with no showing. Goodness, it makes you wonder how I passed this module. Perhaps Paul felt sorry for me in Candi’s absence. Anyways, this is Seb and the opening to his adventure.)

Crescented

His palm itched under the wool of his fingerless gloves. The heat beamed down on his face as he jerked his head, flicking the fringe from his eyes. Curling his fingers over his palms, he wiped away their sweat on his gloves’ woollen surface. Taking in a deep breath, he hopped off the bus with his destination in mind. He swung open the flap of his messenger bag and pulled out a collection of papers. With a lick of his finger, he flicked through the stack, selected the document he needed and shoved the rest of the papers back inside. He exhaled slow as he scanned the piece of paper. Satisfied, he folded it up and poked it in a pocket on the front of his bag.
As he reached the entrance his eyes wandered across the building in front of him. It still looked out of place, with its steel-plated shell surrounding the ground floor and the pine, wooden beams framing the upper three levels. The locals said it looked like a spaceship had swallowed a barn. The Principle defended the architect’s design, referring to it as ‘Modern Art’, although even he was, now, beginning to regret signing the blueprints. The wheel-less bicycle frame was still chained to the drainpipe too. Even the graffiti sprawled against the wall, beside the security guard, Mr. Malone’s, parking space, which read: ‘Fat Tony Maloney’, was still there. He smirked. Nothing had changed. Not that he had expected it to. Unlike the building, however, he had, or at least that was what he wanted people to believe. Before venturing further, he ran his fingers through his recently dyed hair and adjusted his t-shirt to display his new belt buckle. He had to look right. He had to fit in. This was his last chance.
It was the first of September, his first day back at college after the summer break. First impressions counted. There was one last chance to fit in – one last chance to prove that he was somebody. But was he? He was still the same guy who walked these corridors a little over six weeks ago. He may have dyed his hair and acquired a new bag and belt buckle to form a new image, but that was all it was: an image. Although when it came to his peers, image was what mattered. Image was what people noticed. And being noticed was his goal. He had never cared much for fashion. He usually just threw on whatever clothes were in his wardrobe. At first, the names did not bother him, but when ‘Queer’, ‘Tramp’ and ‘Dork’ became regular labels he vowed to make a change. Name calling was not only limited to the students either. He recalled one English lesson when his teacher referred to him as: “Slob,” and in front of the whole class too. They howled with laughter as he sank deeper into his chair. He was done with being that person. “This year will be different,” he told himself. “I can feel it.”

*

His first destination was the reception desk. He needed to pick up his new ID card before venturing off to Tutorial for the briefing of the new academic year. Walking across campus, he was met by the familiar sights of students sprawled about on benches and their rambunctious chatter. Their eyes followed him, and conversations dropped as he passed by. He lowered his head. Stuffing his hands into his pockets, he stared at the floor. His breathing grew heavy. His heart drummed against his ribcage. He swallowed. Hearing laughter, he shuddered. His stomach swirled. Taking a deep breath, he closed his eyes and turned to face them. Opening his eyes, he smirked. False alarm. Some new kid had tripped over the plant pot that stuck out behind one of the benches. ‘Glad that wasn’t me,’ he thought.
Turning back around, he flinched, bringing his body to a halt. A formal-dressed figure, standing a few paces ahead, reached out towards him. “Excuse me,” said the man, hoping to grab his attention. “But could you direct me to the reception? You see it’s my first day on the job and I haven’t quite got my bearings yet.”
“Sure,” he found himself replying, swallowing hard. Why did the new teacher have to single him out for directions? Teacher’s pet was the last thing that he wanted to hear people call him. “I’m heading there myself – it’s this way Sir.”
“Why thank you boy,” replied the man. “Oh, and the name’s Vincent.”
“Seb,” he said with a slight nod and a smile.
As he led the way towards the reception, Seb’s attention was drawn to the teacher’s left hand. Gripping his briefcase, it swung back and forth in motion with their walk. Eyes wide, Seb found himself staring at the large plaster that covered the man’s palm. Having just met him though, Seb felt awkward asking about his injury. Worried that Vincent noticed him staring at his hand, Seb shifted his gaze.
“Do you happen to know what time the first official teaching session starts today?” Vincent asked, checking his watch.
“Erm…” Seb paused as he rummaged around in his bag. Unfolding a piece of paper, he announced, “It’s half one, straight after lunch.”
“Thanks,” Vincent replied, watching Seb return the paper to his messenger bag. “Nice bag by the way – very trendy.”
“Oh, thanks,” Seb smirked flicking the fringe from his eyes.
Arriving at the reception, Vincent announced his departure. “Many thanks,” he said holding out his hand. “I hope we shall cross paths again soon.”
“Me too,” Seb replied, shaking his hand.
Vincent smirked, “I will never understand the fashion of teenagers,” looking at Seb’s gloved hands. Seb exhaled through his nose, feeling his cheeks heat up and brushed his hand through his hair.

*

Having picked up his ID card, Seb made his way back across campus. Clenching his fists, he cursed under his breath. Heaving open the door in front of him he grumbled to himself, as he barged through a bunch of giggling girls. Trudging up the staircase, he clawed his hand through his hair and let out a forceful blow. Tripping, his hand clutched the railing, as the words: “Hey Seb!” rang in his ears.
He looked up. Two boys were walking down the stairs, towards him. The first of the boys, Chad, grabbed hold of Seb’s hand, shook it and patted him on the back. “Sup dude!” said the other boy, with a jerk of his head, giving Seb a high five.
“Hey Chad, Luke,” Seb replied with a nod, just as he had practised that morning in his mirror.
“Hey man,” said Luke frowning. “How can you still wear gloves? It’s like twenty-something degrees out.”
“Drop it Luke,” said Chad rolling his eyes. “You know he never takes ‘em off. It’s like they’re a part of him. He’s worn them ever since Nursery school.” Seb let out a sigh. First Vincent and now these guys. It was no use. How on earth did he think that he could pull off being cool, if he always wore gloves?
“Nice belt buckle,” Chad said trying to change the subject, admiring the bronze coloured skull wearing a pirate’s hat at Seb’s waist. Its one eye was covered by a bandanna that stretched across its forehead and two swords crossed under its throat instead of bones. Seb had found it in an old junk shop over the summer and had taken a liking to it. Imagining buried treasures and sunken ships lost at the bottom of the ocean, it reminded him of why he was here.
“Thanks,” said Seb with a smirk. ‘Finally,’ he thought to himself, ‘I’ve got something right.’
“How’s your summer?”
“Alight,” Seb replied with a shrug. “How ‘bout you guys?”
“Yeah,” Chad agreed.
“Same old, same old,” Luke added, tilting his hand from left to right.
“Listen, catch ya later man,” Chad said. “We’re gonna meet up with the Drama girls, you know, see how their summer was. See you in Form, yeah?”
“Yeah,” Seb replied.
“Later!” Luke called after him, as he passed Seb on the stairs.
Seb lifted a hand in response to their departure. Once they were out of sight, Seb continued to mount the stairs. Looking down at his hands he groaned. Out of everything that he had done, after everything that he had changed to try to fit in, straight away they mentioned the one thing that he could not change.

*

Reaching his Form room, he peered inside. No one was there yet. He was early. ‘Good,’ he thought with relief. This gave him some time alone to think. He flung his bag down under the desk and slumped into his chair on the far side of the room. Closing his eyes, he gave a stretch and sighed. “Hi Seb!” sang a female voice. His heart thudded. His eyes pierced open. It was Abby. “How was your summer?” she asked, curling her hair behind her ear.
“Alight,” he replied with a shrug, as his foot tapped against his chair leg. “How was yours?”
“Amazing,” she beamed.
As Abby recounted her summer, Seb stared at her. He felt sweat forming upon his brow. Noticing his fingers twitch, he moved his hands under the table. His heart’s drumming raced. His pulse pounded through his body. He tried to swallow, but his tongue stuck to the roof of his mouth. ‘What’s wrong with you?’ his brain fumed, as he clutched his fingers around the edge of his chair. ‘Why can’t you act normal? Abby is just a girl. She’s just like everyone else.’ But that was his problem – she wasn’t. It was not just her flawless skin, or her ease with fashion that mesmerised him. She was also highly intelligent, acing all of her exams last academic year. But what Seb liked most about her was that she treated everyone the same. She treated him just like everyone else.
Before the holidays began, after their last History exam, their class were going to the park. Having not been invited, as usual, Seb was heading home, when Abby came up to him and asked him to join them. “It’s not a class party if the whole class isn’t there,” she has said with a smile. Admiring her logic, he could not help but smirk.
“Except nobody wants me there,” he said rolling his eyes.
“Don’t be silly,” she giggled. “Of course they do. Come on, it’ll be fun!” Grabbing his arm, she had dragged him along with her.

*

A guy wolf whistled at Abby, as he passed by the classroom. Her cheeks reddened as she fiddled with her earing, pretending she had not heard it. “I like what you’ve done with your hair by the way,” she said to Seb with a giggle. “It suits you.”
“Erm, thanks,” he said running his hand through it, trying to hide a blush. She giggled at him again.
“Don’t your hands ever get hot?” she asked motioning at his gloves.
“Nah,” he replied laughing along with her. His heart panged. She noticed them too, everyone he had spoken to today had. He had taken so much time upon perfecting his new look: his hair, his bag, his belt buckle and people had noticed them… except they noticed his gloves too. Why was it that the one thing he could not change was the one thing that everyone seemed to see?How did everyone notice them?’ he wondered. ‘Are they that obvious?’
His forehead puckered as he stared at his hands. Silence. He should say something, he realised. Something. Anything. “Hey, erm, Abby…” Seb began. Swallowing, he pulled at the neckline of his t-shirt. “Maybe later-”
“Hey Abs!” Lucy called as she entered the room. “Lauren said I’d find you here.” Seb sighed, rolling his eyes. Lucy had swiped his confidence tablecloth out from under him. He would never be able to continue his conversation with Abby now.
“Oh, hi Seb!” said Lucy, noticing him for the first time, having received a nudge from her friend.
“Hey,” he muttered back, forcing a weak smile. Lucy had wiped Seb from Abby’s mind. Their conversation, lost. Once again, he felt invisible.
As the two girls began their conversation on the other side of the room, Abby gave Seb a smile, which he returned, before diving into his bag to dig out his magazine. Leaning back in his chair, he slid his magazine inside another and placed them on his lap, so that no one could see its content. From the outside, he appeared to be engaging in a film and music magazine, popular with his peers, covered in paparazzi photographs and full of the latest celebrity gossip. What he was actually reading, however, was a History magazine. He did not care much for the more archaic articles, but there was one section that he loved: The Archaeological Artefacts. Discovering the stories behind things like buried treasures – a kingdom of war, boundaries threatened, and loot buried for hundreds of years made his thoughts race, his limbs tingle, his heart pound. He would often dream of the day when it would be his story and his face in the magazine for his archaeological discovery. ‘That would be the day,’ he thought with a smile.
Turning the page, he gave a snigger. The next article was on the legendary treasure of Sir Morgan Hendrix, the privateer. Despite being commissioned by the king to protect the country’s border, Hendrix ripped apart ships, ransacked treasures and slit the throats of anyone who crossed his path. His actions were not limited to the waters either. Villagers ran screaming as his ship, sailing by the red flag, washed up on port.
Following the king’s attempt to withdraw Hendrix’s ‘Letter of Marque’, Hendrix was rumoured to have held a pistol to the royal’s head. In self-defence, the king jabbed Hendrix with a fire iron, scolding the privateer’s hand. A moon crescent scar curled the arch of Hendrix’s palm, earning him the nickname Moonscar.
That same night, under a stormy tide, Hendrix’s ship, known as the Black Crow, clashed with another. Canons were fired. Sails were torn. However, before either captain could order raid on the others ship, a bolt of lightning stuck the Black Crow. The entire ship set aflame. Hearing the howls and screams from the men aboard, the other ship scarpered. The crew attempted to flee, but another bolt of lightning hit. The main mast crashed, crushing many men below the blaze. As flames burnt at Hendrix’s scar, he was said to have cursed the king, blaming him for the ship’s ruin. He vowed his revenge as his ship sank.
The following evening, having marked their location, the other vessel returned, hoping to scavenge through Hendrix’s loot, but the ship was nowhere to be found. They searched the waters for many moons, but no wreckage was ever located.
Three weeks later, locals reported seeing the Black Crow pull up on the shore; however, no record of the ship’s docking has ever been located. It is rumoured that the lightning cursed Hendrix and his crew, turning them into an undead army, following his vow of revenge. During the night, Hendrix broke into the king’s chambers and stole all of his riches, leaving a parchment behind bearing a crescent signature. Wanting to hide his treasure from further attack, Hendrix is alleged to have ordered his crew to bury the hoard, placing various obstacles and curses around it, preventing anyone, other than himself, from being able to retrieve it. The location of his treasure is said to be etched with a crescent, symbolising his scarred hand.
Numerous sightings of the Black Crow have been made throughout history, with it often being to blame for deaths of entire crews, the vanishing or sinking of ships and the disappearance of many riches.
Archaeologists have searched for hundreds of years, but no one has ever found Hendrix’s treasure. They were still clueless as to its exact location. Seb shook his head at the researchers’ stupidity. He doubted that the treasure even existed. It was just a local story told to children to feed their imagination. Although few Historians had argued the truth behind it, no one really believed the story to be true; at least, Seb had never encountered such a person.

- Josie -

16 February 2020

Jump

(Josie Sayz: A rather gloomy Peter and Jane ending - I was in a bad place when writing this. I now have a new continuation piece in the works - reconciliation.)

The clatter of ceramic cups echoed. A vibrating hum rattled. Liquid gushed. Steam sizzled. A rich, roasted, caramel scent wafted. Chairs scratched against the laminate, wooden beams below. Muffled chatter bubbled. Jangling a tub of teaspoons, an aproned man slid one onto both saucers on the bar serving tray. He lifted his head, glancing around at the tables in front of him. Spotting his regular customer, a scrawny guy with his sandy hair scraped back in a ponytail, he scooped up the order and headed over. An inquisitive smirk poked into the corner of the barista’s mouth, as he approached the table. The petite red head in the black and white dress, opposite, was new.
“There just wasn’t anything there with Slightly,” the red head confessed with a sigh, as the barista approached them. “Thank you,” she smiled, as he placed the frothy drink, decorated in marshmallows, in front of her.
“Your usual, Fox,” the barista announced, placing a large glass (with a handle) of transparent earthy-amber liquid in front of his friend. The red head wrinkled her nose at the bitter, citrusy scent that wafted past her.
“Cheers Clank,” Fox nodded. Clank’s forehead furrowed at Fox, as he pointed at the girl sat opposite. “Old work mate,” Fox told him. The barista nodded, leaving. The red head frowned at him. “Curly and I come here all the time,” Fox explained. “Guess Clank’s never seen me with a girl before.” Shaking her head, she giggled. “Carry on Jane,” Fox told her. “You were talking about Slightly.”
“Yeah,” she muttered with a shrug. “He’s a great guy. We went on so many country walks, picnics, days out…” Dropping her sight to her mug, Jane picked up her spoon and prodded it into her mug’s marshmallow mound. “We had so much fun. I literally got to do everything that Peter never wanted to do,” she went on. “I just didn’t feel anything towards him. He was just a really good friend,” she told Fox with a sad sigh. “It was like spending the day with my cousin or brother or even you.” As Jane’s eyes met with Fox’s, they both laughed. “It felt uncomfortable to even hold his hand!” Jane exclaimed with a shudder. Sighing, she returned her sight to her hot chocolate, swirling the spoon. “And I was so annoyed with myself, because on paper, he’s perfect… I just don’t love him. And I didn’t realise what was wrong until he sent Peter over.” Taking a slurp from her hot chocolate, Jane’s stomach swirled. Her heart fluttered in her ribcage. “As soon as Peter walked into the room, it clicked in an instant. The second I saw him, I just wanted to hug him and tell him I missed him,” she beamed. Dropping her eyes to a knot on the table, she slid her fingers along her necklace chain, gripping the fairy pendant. “I couldn’t, not with Slightly outside the door… but that’s when I realised that I’m still in love with him. I know he felt it too,” Jane breathed, as her sparkling eyes widened. “His face lit up the second he saw me.”
Clearing his throat in a cantankerous manner, Fox averted his eyes to his glass. “Jane…” he muttered, scratching the back of his neck. “There’s something I need to tell you.”
“What’s wrong?” she exclaimed. “Has something happened?” Shifting his sight from Jane to his earl grey, Fox’s brow puckered. “It’s Peter isn’t it? Fox… what’s happened? You have to tell me.”
“Peter’s with someone else,” Fox told her.
“Already?” Jane cried. Her heart flopped to her stomach.
“They’ve been together six weeks already,” Fox’s eyebrows slanted together, as he broke Jane the news.
“Six weeks?!” she repeated with disbelief. “I only saw him three weeks ago.” As Fox lowered his head from hers, Jane sank in her seat. “He said everything was fine,” she squeaked. “He said we were friends. He said he’d help me find somewhere to stay once I moved back.” Sniffing, she wiped the back of her hand across her face. “I’ve been emailing him, but he hasn’t replied.”
“I’m sorry Jane,” Fox muttered.
Grabbing a tissue from her bag, Jane pressed it against her nose, as she snivelled. Taking a big swig of her drink, she cleared her throat. “Who is she?” Jane asked. “Fox, you have to tell me. I need to know.”
“Iridessa,” he replied. “You know, client service – Alf Mason’s niece.”
“Her?!” Jane exclaimed. “I can’t stand that snooty little princess! It was because of her I wanted to leave in the first place!”
“They’re really close already,” Fox told her. “She’s practically moved in with him. They go places all the time. They’ve even double dated with Curly and me.”
“You’re not making me feel any better,” snapped Jane, folding her arms.
“Sorry,” he muttered. “But his social media following has improved dramatically. Now that he’s with ‘Dessy they’re going to events, vlogging, taking pictures together – they’re cute just-woke-up-together shots are the most adorable-” Fox halted midsentence, seeing Jane’s scowl. Taking a slurp of his tea, Fox continued, “Now Peter’s all over social media, Hook’s offered him a promotion to. He’ll be our new Chief Editor of Social News on Monday.”
“But Peter hates all of those things,” Jane objected. “He hates going out to places. He hates spending his money. He hates sharing his personal life with everyone online. He hates vlogging – he hates being on camera. And he hates the Social News team.” Folding her arms, Jane declared, “Peter wouldn’t join that department if Hook offered to pay his mortgage off. He’d never work a job he hates.”
“Well you’d better believe it,” Fox told her with a shrug. “He’s a changed man Jane. You were holding him back. Peter has spread his wings and is flying away. He’s a much better guy all-round now he’s dating ‘Dessy.”
“How’d you know all this?” Jane muttered with a frown and a shrug.
“Simple,” Fox told her with a shrug. “Stalk his social media.”
“I’d never do that,” Jane protested. “And you know I don’t do all that stuff. I don’t agree with it.”
“Then make a fake account,” said Fox with a shrug.
“I’m not Dani,” she growled, folding her arms. “You know that’s why I stopped talking to her. She kept emailing me taunting, malicious, negative mind-playing things and she wrote into the ‘Neverlandian News’, several times, reporting me for ludicrous stuff Starkey knew I hadn’t done,” Jane raged. “She even contacted ‘Hook’s Inc.’ about Peter too,” she cried. “Sadly, Hook believed her. That’s when I cut Dani out of my life. Soon after she stopped getting sobbing emails from me updating her on how miserable I felt when all of these random horrible things kept happening, all of the spiteful messages stopped.”
“I could always ask at the pirating guys at ‘Jolly Roger’ t’do the stalking for you,” whispered Fox, leaning towards her, over the table.
“Don’t you dare,” growled Jane, snarling her nose. Her blood pounded in her temples. “You’re not going to them again. Last time you did that, Peter thought they were me.”
“It got his attention, didn’t it,” he smirked with a shrug.
“Yeah, it made him hate me!” she exclaimed. “I got some long email rant from him, telling me to stop spying on his social media and leave him alone. I didn’t know what any of it was about. He knows I don’t use any of those sites and I defiantly wouldn’t pay him money to contact him, when I can email him for free,” she raged. “It wasn’t until I came crying to you that I found out what was going on.” Taking a gulp form her drink, Jane thumped the mug down on the table. “You promised you wouldn’t involve anymore of your so-called pirate friends in my life anymore.”
“I don’t,” he sighed.
“Then why did he say I was stalking him online?!”
“Chillax,” Fox told her, as he slumped back in his chair. “It was me this time.” Frowning, Jane opened her mouth, but before she could object Fox told her, “We’ve all got multiple phones at the ‘Jolly Roger’,” he told her. “I’ve multiple accounts. Look… I was just helping you out. I tried to light a few candles, you know, spark a few memories for you.”
“Fox,” she sighed. “I didn’t want you to do that. Now look what mess you’ve got me in. Peter hates me! He thinks I’m some sort of creepy, psycho, social media stalker and now you’ve driven him into the heart of someone else. Why would you do this to me?” she raged, pressing her fingers into her temples. “I thought we were friends.”
“I was trying to help.”
“Help?” Jane cried. “Help? How was any of that helping?”
“Look, you don’t need Peter,” Fox told her with a shrug. “You don’t need a relationship. Move away. Travel the world. Go exploring. Get a new job in some exotic location and earn loads of money.”
“That’s it Fox; I’ve had enough! You know nothing about me!” Jane raged. “How on earth Peter thought you and your pirate crew were me is beyond me, but this has to stop,” she ordered, thumping her fist on the table. “Stop spying on Peter! Stop talking to Peter – in person and online. Stop pretending to be me. Stop dictating to me what my life should and shouldn’t be, what I should and shouldn’t be doing. You’re the one who told me to move away – you keep telling me to do all the things, but you don’t have the guts to do them yourself – why, just in case things don’t work out? Now look Fox – I have nothing,” Jane erupted, jumping up from her chair. “I have no job. Peter hates me. The whole of ‘SlightlyFood’ and their fanbase are mocking me. I’ve had to move back in with my mum. My brother’s threatened to kill me for leaving them to struggle financially. I finally get Dani out of my life only to find that you’re creating fake stalker account people too, trying to ruin my life. And after everything I’ve done for you…” pausing, Jane’s eyes stung, as she felt them fill up. “It seems everyone in the whole world is only happy when I’m miserable,” she sobbed.
“Jane,” Fox sighed. “Of course the world looks bad when you only look at the negatives. Look, you’re a single, you’ve got nothing tying you down here. Go out there. Go make something of yourself.”
“Fox,” Jane warned, stomping her foot. “Stay away from me!” she cried. “Stay the Hell away from me – in real life and in all of the virtual online twisted lives that you live.”
“Jane,” he huffed.
“No!” she shouted, jabbing a finger at him. “I’m done with you. Now if you were ever my friend, you’d stay away from me.”

*

Stomping up the stairs, Jane stormed into her room, slamming the door behind her. Flopping onto her mattress on the floor, she groaned. “I hate people,” she grumbled to herself. With a groan, she reached out for her laptop, on top of her carry case, and pushed herself up to sit. Leaning against the wall, she slammed her fingers into her laptop’s keys. She took in a long slow breath. ‘Let’s check my email,’ the told herself as she exhaled. Tapping on her trap-pad, she chewed the inside of her cheek. Her eyes widened. A new email. It was from a job application. Her insides swirled. Sliding her mouse across the screen, she clicked on it. “Another rejection,” she sighed, rolling her eyes. Her heart sank. ‘I’ve been applying for jobs for weeks,’ she sighed. ‘All I have are, “Sorry, you have been unsuccessful this time,”.’
Closing her emails, Jane decided to watch a video, to wind down. She rhythmically tapped her nails on her laptop as she waited for webpage to load. “Oh great,” she muttered under her breath as a ‘SlightlyFood’ video appeared as her subscriptions’ most recent uploads. Reading the title, her stomach churned. ‘Rotten Tomatoes – The Ex-Girlfriend Edition’. “That’s all I need,” she groaned, rolling her eyes. ‘I know Slightly too well,’ she told herself. ‘They guys will quiz Slightly on a bunch of food facts. For every one he gets right, he gets to throw a rotten tomato at picture of me.’ Slamming her laptop lid closed, she grumbled, “Very mature Slightly. Very mature. Just like Peter.”
Thump! Thump! Thump! Footsteps raced on the stairs. Bang! Her heart crashed into her ribcage. Bang! Bang! Bang! A lump lodged into her throat, as her door rattled on its hinges. “Oi!” spat her brother, Daniel, as his snarled nose met her own, as Jane opened the door. “Get off the internet!”
“Last time I checked, it’s for everyone,” Jane retorted.
“Nah. I’m streamin’,” he barked. “Get off.”
“She’s on it too,” Jane huffed, jabbing a thumb at her old room, when Daniel’s girlfriend has since taken residence.
“So?” he growled. “She’s streamin’ too.” Jane’s stomach lathered. Her heart rattled in her chest. Her limbs trembled. Taking in a shaky breath, Jane opened her mouth. “I’ll smash yer head in if you don’t,” Daniel roared over her. “And I’ll set fire t’ your room. Now get off!”
“Fine,” Jane shrugged. “You win.” Her shoulders sank as she turned around.
“And Mum said you’re payin’ all the rent you owe us now you’re back.”
“I don’t owe you anything,” Jane snapped, spinning back to face him.
“From when you weren’t here!” he barked. “You owe us three months full rent and all the bills. We ain’t payin’ nothing now.”
“What?!” Jane exclaimed. “I haven’t even got a job yet!” she bellowed back
“Tough!” he spat. “You left us. Now you gotta pay the price.”


*

Having left the house to get away from her brother, Jane wandered the streets. Passing by the old ‘Neverlandian News’ office, she hovered in the driveway. ‘Why did we have to move?’ she sighed. ‘Why did we have to merge with ‘Hooks Inc.’? Things were so much easier before.’ Gazing into the window, her eyes locked with the receptionist’s. Shuddering, Jane lowered her head. Slipping her hands into her pockets, she walked on.
Turning into the park, Jane plonked herself down on a bench. Gazing at the patch of grass at her feet, her vision blurred. Barking sounded to her right. Shaking her head, Jane twisted her head towards the dog. A bundle of scraggly fur bound towards her, with a ball in his mouth. Sliding to a halt at Jane’s feet, he dropped the ball in front of her. His tail wagging, he looked up at her. Smirking, Jane crouched down and scooped up the ball. “You want to play,” Jane cooed.
“Sorry!” called a lady in the distance, as she jogged towards Jane. “He’s very excitable,” she told her. “Bad boy,” she scolded. “Don’t bother the lady.”
“It’s fine,” Jane told her with a smile. “Here you go,” she said, returning the dog’s ball to his owner. As the lady threw the ball across the park, her dog raced away. “Bye!” Jane called after them.
Vibration rattled in her pocket. Jane’s heart leapt. ‘My phone!’ she gasped. Grabbing it from her pocket, she looked at the screen. ‘Mum Calling,’ it read. “Oh,” she sighed, rolling her eyes. ‘It’s not a job then.’ Pressing her finger against the screen, Jane answered, “Hello?”
“Are you home yet?” her mum asked.
“I’m at the park,” Jane replied with a sigh.
“Still?” her mum huffed. “I thought you’d be home by now.”
“I went home,” Jane sighed. “But Dan was being horrible, so I left.”
“Well, have you looked to see if you’ve heard back from any jobs yet?”
“Only one rejection email.”
“Well you have to keep looking,” her mum sighed with frustration.
“I know,” Jane told her. “And I am – when I’m allowed on the internet.”
“Well you can’t sit around at home!”
“But they can,” Jane mumbled
“What?” her mum shouted. “I can’t hear you?”
“I said I know,” Jane projected with a sigh. “And I am looking. I’m going to see if I can catch Mister Starkey when he leaves.”
“Well you’d better!” her mum barked.


*

Wandering the streets, Jane’s face became blotchy. Her windswept hair flapped against her. Her stomach churned. Stuffing her hands into her pockets, she stormed on. With her head down, she flickered her eyes about the street. Every time people neared, she branched off down the nearest road. Trailing streets, her pace increased.
Clouds bubbled overhead. A nearby streetlamp flickered on, as she passed beneath it. Slowing her strides, Jane arched her head at her surroundings. “Oh Peter,” she whispered to herself with a sigh, stopping at a weathered, stone bridge. Her heart fluttered at the mention of his name. Prodding her elbows on the cobbled rim of the bridge, Jane gazed down at the train track. ‘I used to love watching the trains with you,’ her thoughts gushed, with a sniffle, as though she were conversing with Peter. Clasping her hands together, she shuddered as the distant rhythmical chu-chug, chu-chug, chu-chug of a distant train, from behind, grew louder. ‘They’d rush by so quickly, yet you knew every one,’ she went on. The clattering hastened. Picking up speed, the ground beneath Jane trembled, as the train rocketed under the bridge. Zipping along the line before her, the train shrank, until it was no more than a speck in the distance. ‘You’d stand behind me,’ Jane remembered, ‘and wrap your arms around me… and kiss the top of my head.’ Folding her arms, she squeezed her biceps tight. Her chest pounded. Pinching her eyes tight, her bottom lip trembled. ‘I miss that…’ Opening her eyes, a squeak escaped her. “I miss you,” she sobbed out loud. Daggering her nails into her arms, Jane’s chest began to jitter. ‘I don’t know what happened… I don’t understand why you’ve gone away… why you’re not talking to me… why you’re with someone else…’ Her breathing grew shallow. Sniffing, she snapped her eyes tight, reminiscing of her last encounter with Peter, back at Slightly’s flat. Peter’s arms around her, holding her tight. The sweet sweat and black coffee scent she inhaled as she pressed her head into his chest. His gentle kiss on the top of her head. ‘You promised… you promised you didn’t want to be with anyone else… Peter you promised.’ Gripping her fairy necklace, a salty trickle trailed down her cheek. “I love you,” she squeaked out loud to the train track. ‘I miss you. Why has everything changed? I don’t understand. You don’t want me. ‘Hook’s Inc.’ doesn’t want me. I never fitted in at ‘SlightlyFood’. Mum doesn’t want me back. My brother keeps threatening to kill me. Dani ruined things. Fox is a lying, evil, manipulative toad and he’s made everything a thousand times worse,’ she snivelled. Taking in a shaky breath, Jane heaved herself up onto the bridge’s rim. ‘He’s made you think I’m some horrible person. I did so much for him. I try so hard every day to make people happy. Yet everyone seems to hate me.’ Gazing at the street ahead, Jane lowered her sight to her lap. Her heart raced in her ribcage. Her pulse drummed at her temples. Pounding filled her ears. Her hands trembled. She balled them into fists. ‘What’s wrong with me? Why is everyone so mean? Why does everyone push me away? I can’t get a job.’ As an elderly lady zipped by on a mobility scooter, Jane scrunched her face up tight. ‘It’s over,’ she cried to herself. ‘My life’s over. I’ve lost everything… I have nothing. I have nothing to live for. Nothing.’ Burying her head in her hands, murmurs squeaked from her. Sniffing, salty tears puddled in her palms. “I miss you,” she blubbered. ‘Oh Peter, I miss you so much!’
‘You’re probably cosying up with Iridessa right now,’ she tortured herself with images of the two of them. Her heart panged. Her stomach knotted. Rubbing he hands to her eyes, they stung. Taking in a snivelling breath, her chest tightened. Staring ahead, the cars passing by where nothing more than blurs of colour in her vision. She squeaked shallow breaths. ‘She’s prettier than me, richer than me, more fun to be around than me… she’s probably better at everything than me,’ her thoughts trailed to the two of them: Peter and Iridessa, arms around each other, snuggled up under and blanket on the sofa. ‘You’re probably kissing her right now,’ she squeaked. Shuddering, Jane wobbled backwards. Her heart dropped. Flailing her arms at her sides, she thumped her palms into the wall, pushing herself back up. ‘I wish I was dead,’ she cried, as her heart flung itself to the front of her chest. ‘I wish I was dead. I can’t do this anymore.’
Throwing one of her legs over the side of the bridge, Jane twisted herself around to face the track. As she clambered over, a lump lodged in her throat. Her heart raced. Her fingers trembled. Forcing a swallow, her breathing grew shallow. Her eyes flickered to the drop below. Pinching her eyes shut, her chest tightened. Balling her hands into fists, she clawed her nails into her skin. A shaky breath escaped her. ‘Come on Jane,’ she told herself. ‘Stop being scared. You can do this.’ Gripping the rim of the wall, Jane steadied her breaths. As the rapping at her ribcage decelerated, she opened her eyes. With her back to the road, she stared ahead. Sliding her hand into her jacket pocket, Jane pulled out her phone. Her heart thudded faster. Jabbing her thumb into the screen, her stomach spun in a circumbendibus as she hovered over Peter’s name. A distant hum sounded. Her ears pricked up. Chu-chug. Her heart thumped. She pressed dial. Thud-thud. Chugging grew louder. The dial tone vibrated her ears. A light flickered ahead. Her eyes shot up. A train. Beeb-beeb. She flickered her sight back to her phone. Thud-thud. Her heart raced. Chu-chug. The train accelerated. Beeb-beeb. “Hello?” came a familiar voice. Her hand trembled. Thud-thud. Her bottom lip quivered. Chu-chug. “Jane? Is everything-” Letting go of her phone, it plummeted to the track below. Chu-chug-chu-chug. Her chest shook. Her limbs tingled. The headlights sped closer to her. Her heart leapt. She jumped.

- Josie -