You deserve much better than me

You deserve nothing but the best,
Someone who lifts you, when you’re feeling depressed.
When you meet her, you will know,
Because you’ll want her with you, wherever you go.
You won’t go days without checking in,
You’ll want to be together, your story will begin.
You deserve to be free to find her,
I won’t hold you back, or hold you tighter.
I must let go, it’s what’s best for you.
When you meet her, you’ll know it is true.
But for now, I’ll leave you be.
You deserve much better than me.

 

- Josie -

 

(Note: This is not self-sabotage. This is realistic realisation and self-protecting. Everyone I date says they want a relationship, but they don’t act like they do with me, yet they tell me they do. If they did, and if I was the right person for them, they would act like it. It is not that they are incapable of treating someone correctly in a relationship, because they can do it instantly after getting out of one relationship and into the next. If K, R, R, A, R and D couldn’t treat us like a relationship, but wants a relationship, I needed to let him/her go so that he/she could find someone who he/she does want those things with. I just wasn’t that person for K, R, R, A, R or D. I was doing the right thing by going away, rather than waste months or years of their life hoping that they would treat me right, when they could have been finding the person that they will treat right.)