All I Ask For Is Five Minutes

(Josie Sayz: I found out today that asking for five minutes of someone's day is the equivalent of asking for 0.3% of someone's day. How worthless am I that I'm not even worth 0.3% from the person who was supposed to love me, care about me and want to spend the rest of their life with me?)

All I ask for is five minutes,
Five minutes with me.
To check in, to feel your love, to know you’re alright.
To hear about you day,
And to wish you goodnight.

Endless days alone,
Staring at my phone,
Waiting…
Just waiting to hear from you.
My heart aches,
Close to breaks.
Worthless…
I mean nothing to you.

How long do I pretend that I’m tough,
Never feeling good enough…

All I ask for is five minutes,
Five minutes with me.
To check in, to feel your love, to know you’re alright.
To hear about you day,
And to wish you goodnight.

I told you I’m hurting.
Can’t keep reverting
To shrinking…
My only need.
Basic communications,
Full of frustrations.
I’ll never
Be worth anything to you.

Can’t keep pretending that I’m tough,
I know I’m not good enough…

All I ask for is five minutes,
Five minutes with me.
To check in, to feel your love, to know you’re alright.
To hear about you day,
And to wish you goodnight.

You reach out,
Then you retract.
Ask how I am,
Don’t read it back.
Why do you not care?
It’s not fair.
I keep giving and I’m giving,
Almost broken.
I don’t have much left.
I gave you my all, I swear.

I can no longer keep pretending that I’m tough.
I’ll never be good enough…

I’m not asking for days, weeks or hours.
I’m not asking for diamond rings or constant flowers.
I’m not dictating your life or controlling your day.
I’m just asking for you to spare five minutes my way.

I’m sorry I’m not tough.
I’m sorry I’ll never be good enough…

All I asked for is five minutes,
Five minutes with me.
To check in, to feel your love, to know you’re alright.
To hear about you day,
And to wish you goodnight.

- Josie -