Lost in my Head

(Josie Sayz: This is the first time that I have attempted to try and explain what happens in my head sometimes. Although I haven’t felt this way in a while, because things were really starting to improve in my life, something happened last night that resulted in a little blip. I don’t know if it’s only temporary or if it’s here to stay, but this is how I feel.)

It’s dark; it’s cold,
I feel far too old
For this to go on.
I can’t take the pain,
All that’s left is the rain
Too depressed to go on.

I feel so ashamed,
It’s always the same…

Can’t get out of bed.
There’s rocks in my head.
I feel so uptight.
Can’t you turn out the light?
Don’t want to talk – please go away.
Just wanna lie here – waste away the day.
You don’t understand; this is not a trend,
It’s a dreadful feeling I fear will never end.
I’m lost in my head.

I’ve been here so long,
The feeling’s too strong.
Can’t fight it away.
Don’t want it to be,
Please don’t forget me.
I’ll be back someday.

I just can’t explain,
How this feeling became…

Can’t get out of bed.
My head feels like lead.
Try as I might,
I can’t turn on the light.
Every day’s the same – it won’t go away.
Feeling so trapped – I just can’t break away.
They don’t understand; this is not a trend,
It’s a dreadful feeling I fear will never end.
I’m lost in my head.

I’m lost in my head.
Just fills up with dread.
My head feels like lead.
I wish I was dead.
I can’t leave my bed.
I’m lost in my head.
Lost in my head.

- Josie -