I Wish I Said This Instead

 I’ll try harder. What if we don’t text daily. I won’t text you at all, as you’re too busy. I will put my life on hold and I won’t do anything, so you can phone me whenever you can squeeze me in, in between spending time with all of your friends and family. I’ll cancel all of the plans that I have on the weekends with colleagues who are trying to help me, and I’ll sit waiting, just in case you have time to spare while waiting for a lift or waiting while your friend goes to the toilet. You can make everyone else your main priority, but me and I will make you my number one priority and just wait and wait and wait to hear from you. I don’t want to lose you, so I’ll do whatever it takes, even if the doctor says this is mentally abusive xxx